Some more

reasons why. (Forgive me, but today is a two post day, I'm needing motivation in the worst way, so I bring you more reasons why.)

1) (I can't remember what number I left off on last time, so we're just going with #1 again.) I want to be as pretty on the outside as I am on the inside ( or at least that's what people tell me. Most days I feel like a snarky bitch, but evidently I'm pretty fucking cool.)
2) I never again want to hear the phrase, "But you have such a pretty face."
3) I want to be average
4) I don't want to have to take medication other than birth control until I'm MUCH older. My grandma took only a baby aspirin and one pill for her "shakes" until she was nearly 90, I'd be cool with that.
5) I want to stop having to buy only shoes and purses (you know that shoes and purses never make a girl look fat.)
6) I want to be able to go to the gym, fitness center, bike trail, run a race, etc. and look like I belong there instead of getting that "look" from people. It's a look that's sort of a combination of pity/incredulity/shock/mirth...like they half ass admire you for "trying" yet secretly want to laugh at you because you're only going 3.5 mph on the treadmill and can't let go of it for fear you'll fly right off the back end.
7) I want to be able to let go of the handles on the treadmill with no fear of flying right off the back end. (This might not be achievable, not because of weight, but because I am truly a klutz and can bruise myself just getting out of bed in the morning.)
8) I want to be able to just be me...not the fat one, the thin one, the funny one...I want to be done with labels and just be me...now I know I can do that at any size, but trust me, when you've been the "fat one" for so long...just dropping that adjective can do wonders.....