An AHA moment!

I have had an AHA moment...it doesn't happen often and to have one before I even starting my schooling with Coach K, is somewhat of a breakthrough for me. (Yes, I said I will begin schooling with Coach K. I am picturing her rapping me over the knuckles with a ruler when I answer, "I don't know.") My AHA moment is this: I have trouble with food because food never judges me. Food never cares what I wear, what I say or how I act. Food is never mad at me, it never demands too much of me. It never nags me. It never wants too much. Food truly is a comfort to me. The second part of the AHA comes in realizing the things food/overating DOES. Overeating DOES make me feel bad, it does make me sick (at times) and make me want to cry. It DOES make me less of a person. It DOES make me feel worse, after it's supposedly made me feel better. Learning to let the DOES outweigh the DOESN'T is what I am working on now.
Wednesday night after rocking my day, the kids and hubs in bed, I got struck with some way out there in left field anxiety, over what, who the hell knows. I just had this feeling of, "Everyone hates me, Everyone's mad at me, boy I really fucked something up, didn't I?" What did I do, I wandered to the kitchen. What happened next? Ice. I grabbed a book and a bowl of ice and started munching. It's like the whole hand to mouth chew on something is what I HAD to have to make that feeling go away. Crazy, I know. But it did go away, I went to bed, woke up the next morning and knew that everything was fine, no one (well, at least no one I care about) hated me or was mad at me and I didn't screw anything up.
Yesterday I had another perfectly on plan day. After the wrestling meet, I came home and exercised. Since I did elliptical Wednesday night, last night was toning. 30  minutes of toning with my resistance bands. Leg lifts, lunges and squats with my ankle weights on. Ab work, again with my ankle weights. WHOA, you say, how does one do ab work with ankle weights? Simple, when doing your crunches, bend your knees up at like a 90 degree angle form the floor, cross your ankles and then do your crunches, kind of like a double crunch. Trust me, the ankle weights work. I will share my second ankle weight/ab work out in a minute.
It feels good to be back on the wagon and back in a routine. It feels good to climb on the scale again instead of fearing it. The pain in my abs today, feels REALLY good. The fact that i can eat a chocolate brownie/cookie 5 times a day kicks ass.
KILLER AB WORK OUT:
This will kick crunches completely out of our work out program.
Lie flat on your back, hands at your sides. with your knees pressed together lift both legs off the ground about 6 inches and hold, as long as you can. Start with 30 seconds and try to work up to two minutes. For increased workouts, hold an exercise ball between your ankles while doing this, (obviously that will make your knees come apart, just pretend like Brad Pitt is in the room and throw those knees open girls) OR, put on the beloved ankle weights. Trust me, you will feel it after about 15 seconds and 1-2 minutes will truly kick your ass. I can only do one minute, now.