Breaking up

is hard to do and that truly is what some of us are doing. We are breaking up with our old eating habits. We are breaking up with our favorite foods. We are ending our relationship with food and looking at food as fuel instead of entertainment. Ah hell, who am I kidding, we are ATTEMPTING to do this. We are TRYING to do this. but like I said, breaking up is hard work! I have had no problems kicking potatoes to the curb. Cookies, cake, candy, I threw them out long ago. I have trouble saying, "so long" to things like pasta, peanut butter and bread. And mostly because I cannot THROW these things out. My family still eats these things and enjoys these things and they are not forbidden items for them, as they are for me, nor do I want to make them forbidden items. (Yes, I can hear you saying, 'But wait, we can have peanut butter.' Yes, WE can, I on the other hand cannot because I cannot limit myself to the recommended serving. I cannot be trusted with a jar of peanut butter and a spoon. I have started buying the single serve little bowls. I have Drew hide them so I have no idea where they are and when I want one, or when Jaci wants a peanut butter sandwich, he retrieves them from the depths and divvies them out. It's the only way.) The bread does not usually bother me, but every so often, the kids will want a sandwich and I will stand there sniffing the bread for a good 10 minutes before I make the sandwich because it smells so good. I have taken to leaving the bread in the freezer, out of sight, out of mind and then all they can do is make toast. So far, it's been working. The pasta...I did try the miracle noodles. I made a nice chicken and vegetable lo mein and truly enjoyed it. It totally felt like cheating. I have not made pasta for the family in a few weeks, we shall see how that test goes when the time comes, as I have no more miracle noodles. Ending my relationship with these foods is tough work. It's every day work. Its choices made at each meal.
We had a great meeting on Saturday, it's nice to hear everyone's stories, successes and struggles and to share. Coach K Squared (That's Kristie) asked that we visualize our selves at our goal. So, I am trying to do that this week. She asked what things I would be doing at goal that I can't do now and that's hard to determine. I can and do shop at the Buckle and anywhere else, not just the fat girl section. I can and do exercise, jogging for 20 minutes straight. I can and do wear size large, not extra large or 2X, so my goal this week is to try to determine what I will do at a size 10 that I cannot do now. HTen once I have figured out what that will be, I will visualize myself there. Right now, I am taking things 10 pounds at a time. Just 10 pounds. I had a good weigh in this week, down 5 pounds, so that means five more. Just five more...just one more week on plan. I'll make this plan my bitch again, if it kills me.