Day one: Part Deaux

That's it! I'm done, I don't care if it's Dec. 28 or Jan.1. Today is the day, I start over. I'm sick of myself, my fat pants are getting tight. I had gotten to the point where I could throw all of my jeans in the dryer and not worry about it, last night, I laid them out to dry. WHY? WHY I SAY???? Why do I let myself fall back into old habits so easily? I guess because it is easy. It's easy to grab whatever is at hand and stuff it in your face. It's easy to sit on the couch and veg instead of working out. It's easy to go buy bigger pants instead of working at getting back into the smaller ones. (thank God I haven't done that yet.) It's easier to order pizza than it is to cook a healthy, balanced meal.
Here's the thing...I don't want to be easy anymore. I want to get my energy level back instead of sleeping for 12 hours and feeling like I could sleep some more. I want this marshmallowey feeling to go away. I want to crave vegetables again and not bread, pasta and crackers.
New Year's plans or not, (which at this point is an invitation for an early dinner and drinks, which we haven't decided whether or not to do) I don't care, today is my day one again. I had a mocha shake for breakfast, I have oatmeal 'brewing' (which means softening) I have chili in the fridge and I have chili cheese puffs for a snack, or a brownie, depending on what I feel like. I have blue hake in the freezer which I will cook on my new little George. (I've had a George for a few years, but it's ginormous. I wanted one that I could fix my little piece of fish or chicken breast on, not one that I could grill a side of beef on, which was approximately the size of my old one.) I have a bag of broccoli steamers in the freezer. I have a plan.....If you fail to plan, you plan to fail....I will say a prayer over the wine I pour down the drain later tonight..(this I might not do...I may put it in an ice cube tray and freeze it for future sangria, it seems much less wasteful). I WILL say a prayer over the cookies and candies that are going directly into the burn barrel. I won't let me get me....