From this day forward

when i am having a bad day I will look at the beach picture posted here and stare at my shoulder. You may think I sound like a real doucherocket here, but seriously, I am in love with how my shoulder looks in that picture. It's toned, I can see collarbones...I am tan, I look tiny nestled into Dan's shoulder.. (well there are very few people in this world who don't look tiny compared to Dan, hence the Big D thing) anywho..this will be my new inspiration picture. When I am feeling low, I will stare at my shoulder.

I have been staring at it a lot the last couple of days with my 8 pound vacation gain and this huge bloated cow like feeling I'm having. I asked for it though with my massively off plan eating and drinking. I used the excuse that I was on vacation, it was all inclusive (meaning 95% buffet) and yes there were healthier choices, but I for one have a very hard time grabbing an oatmeal or yogurt when there is a waffle/french toast/omelette station staring you in the face. I did skip the french toast and waffles and did a loaded with veggie omelette, but I had toast with it...I also have a hard time going for the salad when there is an unbelievable made to order pasta chef standing three feet from me. It makes me feel a little nervous for transition and maintenance.  I know which options to chose, but will I actually be able to chose them when push comes to shove? Will I be able to maintain my at least 3 day a week work out schedule? (With the massive amounts of crud migrating from my nose down the back of my throat and my enormous swollen glands, there is no exercising at all right now, but the week is young) Will I be able to say no thanks to the pasta and order the salad? Most likely I will order the pasta with a to go box, box up half of it and have the salad too. But as long as I do THAT and not eat the entire 3 pound serving of pasta, I'll be okay. I am again about 20 pounds from my goal...these last 20 pounds may be a bitch...but we will continue on and kick them to the curb, no matter how long it takes or how many ups and downs I have....