Dealing

with feedback and cookies.That is what I am doing these days. I am dealing with feedback and Christmas cookies. Typically by this date in December I have baked roughly 17 different kinds of cookies and candies. (OH the horror!) While I do taste one or two, I don't really eat all that much, I take them to various parties and give quite a bit of it away. This year, I haven't baked at all, until last night. I made a batch of fudge puddles. They are a family favorite and combine two of God's greatest creations chocolate and peanut butter...and now I am dealing with cookies...I ate two bites of cookie dough and one of the finished product. So here I am BAM, back out of the fat burning mode...I have a night on the town planned with my inner circle, I KNOW I will be having cocktails, so I think my brain is saying, "Fuck it, you're going to be out of fat burning mode anyway, so what is a bite of peanut butter cookie dough going to do that the cocktails won't?" Hence my inner struggle. I did not work out last night. I got home from work, threw supper together, put it in the oven, tried to wrap a few Christmas gifts, took Jaci to dance, instead of walking/biking while she was at dance I went to the grocery store and to grab a few stocking stuffers without young eyes seeing what was in the shopping cart. Then I bought a magazine and a diet Dr. Pepper and headed back to wait for dance to be over. I went home, fed the family, made a dessert for a family Christmas on Saturday, baked the cookies and helped Drew study for his semester science test. Then I took a bath and shaved my legs and was in bed by ten. (And the experts say, 'you need to just make time to exercise,') REALLY Mr. Expert? When do you expect a mom to do that? I know, I know, make it a priority...right now, my priority is to find my kitchen counter and try to make it through the holidays....exercise is not on the list right now, but I know it should be...
Now, that I've explained dealing with the cookies, on to the feedback. I know this is something that others struggle with to...what do you say when people say, "Wow you've lost a lot of weight haven't you?" Or something like, "Wow, you're not such a cow anymore," or "Gee didn't your ass used to be the size of a Buick?" Now, it's one thing to have close friends or family say this, ones who haven't seen you in a while, or ones who say, "Wow, I can really see the difference in your face." Those comments I can handle...and I appreciate them and say "thank you", or "kiss my ass, you could have told me I had 8 chins." When I was in Mexico and we were hanging out at the bar the one time and i had on my little black dress and my husband told me I looked hot, and several others at the bar said, "that one is hot," I liked that, I blushed appropriately and "bought a round of shots," (considering it was an all inclusive resort, a round on me was the least I could do :)) It's the comments from the peanut gallery...those acquaintances that I don't know all that well, those are the comments I am trying to deal with. I mean honestly, what do you say to someone whom you've maybe had 2 random conversations with in your entire life, when they say, "You've lost a bunch of weight, haven't you?" Now, I'm not one who is usually, short on words, but when this happens, I stammer and stutter and mumble, "umm yeah, a few..." so I am trying to come up with a rational intelligent answer to that statement...that's another thing I need some luck with.
Tonight, night out with the besties
Tomorrow VanAernam Christmas
Sunday Jensen Christmas....yep...I'm screwed...