Escape from Obesity blog hit me perfectly today! Go read it now! Stop reading my blog, I don't know that I will have anything revolutionary to say today, anyway, and go read hers!
Now, that you're back, isn't it the truth? Isn't it crazy how we can want two totally contradictory things? I mean she hit the nail on the head when she said, why is it I know what I want, yet I keep doing the opposite of what it takes to get there? (Okay, that was paraphrasing) But it's so true! I can say, "I want to be a size 10," yet I can have a spaghetti laden mini binge at the same time, so what is it I really want? THAT my friends is what I need to explore. What is it I want more and how do I get there? How much do I sacrifice? How much do I push myself? When is good enough, truly good enough and when is it crap? Because sometimes you can say you're good enough and sometimes when you say, "good enough," you know its complete and utter bullshit and you're just trying to justify the 12 pack of baby cheesecakes you just shoved down your throat.
Coach K has given me some homework and once my bank account recovers from the retail therapy I did last week, I will order the materials I need to accomplish my homework and perhaps I will learn what it is I really want.
I know tonight I am glad that I will be out of the house. The void brought home a Chicago deep dish style pizza from Giordanos for the kids. They are cooking it tonight. (Its amazing that you can buy gourmet deep dish Chicago pizza frozen and take it home.) While I know he had wonderful thoughts and that it was something for the kids, deep dish pizza is like food porn...you say you don't eat it, but secretly, we all do..,.. So, they have strict orders to finish the entire pizza before I get home, so there will be no temptation. Be warned Coach K, I may be texting you en mass, in case they do not follow my directions.
Weigh in this week wasn't good, but I knew it wouldn't be. that's what I get for not following directions and not doing what I was supposed to. Up 2 pounds. Such is life. But also its time that I decide what my next step will be...what is it I want more and how do i stop wanting two different things at once? That my friends is my mission. What's yours?
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